Now aku sorang2 kt McD.. pd aku, duduk sorang2 boleh release tension dan bnyak perkara blh fikir dgn tenang.. terasa hidup ini bagaikan tiada warna lagi setelah abah pergi meninggalkan kami sekeluarga (2 Mac yg lepas). Wajah abah sentiasa bermain di ingatanku. Saat abah sakit di hospital bermain2 difikiranku. Seakan tidak percaya abah telah tiada. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yg memikul. Mak di kampung bersama2 dgn dua adik lelaki ku.. x sanggup ku berjauhan dgn mereka, apakan daya, ada tanggungjawab di sini yg masih belum selesai.
my life really in mess, didn't care anymore what people gonna say.. I'm not strong enough to take all this, I want to be strong for my mum (as I'm the eldest) but don't believe for myself. What am I suppose to do?? Can't figure out anything but I know deep deep inside my heart, I need a change. but HOW..?? I'm so WEAK,,
undergoing my intern really push me up to be fake in front of others, smiling, laughing, like I'm a strong a girl, but I know I don't...... no one know it, no one see it.....
I don't have many friends..
I ever had a boyfriend.. am I??
I have close friend....but they all far away from me..
I have family and they all far away from me too..hometown..
I don't have anybody who really close to me to help me up...
I have ALLAH.... and I know He wants me to be strong...
and I also know.. it's not easy....
if any of you reading this entry, I need you.. give me advice.. give me support.. I need your words to make me fight for this life.. I need friends... I need someone...
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