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Guys!! I actually bukan suka sgt nak share citer chenta I dengan my dear tapi I tengah gerammmm ni~!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~!!!! Gugurl memang mcam ni ker ataupun I je rasa mcam ni..?? You guys nak tahu pe I rasa?? I geram bila my dear kata, "Tak peduli bukan bermakna dah bosan or tak sayang..." HABIS TU?? Guys... tolong laa.. Kalo you guys dah memang betul2 depan BF tersayang korang tapi dia boleh buat U mcam tak wujud jer........ pe korang rasa ekk??? takkan bila ada hal or tujuan je baru leh 'connected' to each other?? bila dah setel terus 'disconnected' mcam tu je ke?? korang laki2 ni tak concern.. tak sensitive tentang hati seorang wanita.....

SOMETIMES... I rasa dah malas nak berchenta ni.. Nonsense btul la... ibarat takda masalah cari masalah,huh!! Jenis I plak, bila ada masalah yang I rasa damn giler, I suka mintak break up and cakap kat my dear yang I give up dah dengan sume soal chenta ni.. then nanti my dear akan cakap.. "perempuan camtu la, ada masalah skit nak lari, gaduh sket  nak putus.." then setiap kali my dear ckp mcm tu la I akan diam... bukan nak putus sangat pun actually... cuma nak rasa dihargaii & difahami.. teringat plak citer hindustan semalam, HUM TUM kat TV3.. perihal boys and girls.... very the complicated~!!! 

NOW... I feels like I don't want to be in love anymore.. I know I couldn't bear myself to tell him about this, even I said it he won't accept it at all... already try many times... So I decide, just let it be.... just let me leave him silently without him to know anything.... the only way........ I will be there if he needed me but I will try not to depends on him anymore. Love myself first.....

huarrrhhhhh...........very tired lor.. finish work at 6pm from 9am.. esok keje lagi.... malasnyaa... Hahahaha... Alhamdulillah, syukran Ya Allah untuk rezeki yang Kau berikan padaku hari ini.. TRYING to Sleep...daa....